Afterword

When it was all over I asked the wisest man I could find which way to go. He looked me straight in the heart and said “Stay right here and let the silence fill you.”

Spring in Winter

My heart is not afraid anymore
My eyes are not dazzled by the glitz and glamour of this world
Blinded by the clamour
Or clouded by the judgments of others

I do not presume, assume, consume
Or take for granted anymore
God's loving kindness and compassion

I give space to my soul's expression
My soul is like newly washed curtains that I must draw at nightfall
So I can abide, confide, not strive
And open them again at the dawning of a new day

This causes me to come and go with rejoicing
A spring in my step though it may be winter all around

In my travelling, arriving, waiting returning or departing
There is a distance to cross
A journey, a race, a destination to reach
A space to exist within

At last
It's the palm of His hand

don't go back

what will u find?

no child hides
no room prepared
no table laid

the dying are busy
burying the living

strange cloud eclipes
the star

the wind of repetition
blows and blows

don't go back
she is here

the child
travels with u

flying home

horizon coloured sunset
ocean boat plane
there was a call
there is a name
waves far below
soundless soundless sea
sited land
wing tips
lights flicker

turning of a season

swiftly summer light descends into autumn breeze
beloved, tell me what I cannot see
as the leaves are falling from the trees

God ...

... The rock from which I was hewn
The quarry from which I was dug

Abraham my father
Sarah my mother

My desert a garden
Joy and gladness found

Waste places comforted
Melodious sound

blood brother

god created man
man revealed woman
woman brought forth child with the help of god and man
child grew with the help of woman man and god
man and woman wondered at this image of each other and god that was before them
and so made another child who grew and murdered his brother who was also his image as well as the image of the man the woman and god
the brother's blood cried out for vengeance upon his blood brother who left marked by god to build a city and try to forget the loss of the image of himself the man the woman and god
sin is a dog that crouchest at your door said god to the marked man brother you mayest master it

decades of yearning broken promises and slavery piled up on the marked blood brother's children's children
until there came the elder brother of god's house who gave his life blood to answer the blood still crying out from vengeance's field
god forsaken son of humanity a bloody spectacle in the field
in a strange twist the elder brother son of humanity was betrayed for blood money by another brother's kiss
covered by shame blood money brought a grave
field of blood the earth became on the day the elder brother son of humanity died
at last son of man's blood covered the blood of the first man's son
blood brother for blood brother
vengeance is mine whispered god vengeance is mine
as the cross was implanted in the field and god's beloved son was slain